Ruth Feeley

My name is: Ruth Feeley

I am: 59 years old

I am from: Ireland

Before I became a Muslim, I was: Christian but lapsed

I have been a Muslim for: 5 years

I became a Muslim because: 

I never had a problem with the Trinity. I know a lot of reverts say that this was their issue but for me, if God was omniscient, omnipresent and all powerful… then to me… his ability to be 3 in 1 was not an issue.

My problem was when I looked into the distortion of the biblical scriptures and all that took part in the Council of Nicea…. This broke my heart, truly, this impacted deeply on the beliefs of my upbringing. I suppose for all of us what we were brought up on lies deep within our psyche, so when we suddenly are confronted with the “Haqq” it is a traumatic experience. Especially when we are sincerely considering the implications and impact on our journey towards true faith. I never ever thought that I’d become a Muslim, I had no real interest in Islam but Masha’Allah. My Lord sought me out and provided me with the truth… He is so gentle and so patient and waited for me to come to Him in true humility and in tears. This was the biggest thing in my life. The most huge transformation.

The best thing that has changed in my life is: It is like a veil has been lifted from the eyes of my soul. I was totally enthralled by Allah Subhanu wa’ta’ala and still am. I have no regrets, no hesitation in continuing – however slowly – on my path. There are still many questions in my mind. But I trust that Allah will guide me in His perfect way, with His perfect plan. And you know what? He has put precious people in my path who have helped to guide me and keep me on the Sirat Mustaqeen. Of course I have had dreadful moments of doubt, panic, fear, anxiety…. but always, in the smallest of ways and in the biggest of ways…. Allah has constantly lead me back to Him. Allah’Akbar, Allah’Akbar, Allah’Akbar

My advice to someone who is looking into Islam is:
Take your time, don’t feel under any pressure from anyone. Do your research, ask Allah to guide you to the right people. Ask Allah to give you discernment and wisdom. Don’t believe everything you hear…. check it out, find sincere, humble, patient, loving, caring brothers or sisters to help you along your journey. And if you fall, just get back up again. When Allah calls you, personally, to Him…. HE WILL NEVER EVER LEAVE YOU. So trust in this. Talk to Him EVERY day, even when you don’t understand the “rules” of Islam…. talk to Allah and He will provide what you need at the appointed time. You will definitely find those brothers and or sisters who will explain so many things to you and you will KNOW that their words come from Allah. You will KNOW that you are hearing the truth because it will touch your soul and you will feel the call to obedience not as a chore but as a blessed enlightenment…. revelation from Allah is AMAZING…. I can’t explain it more than this…. but you will KNOW when you know. May Allah Subhanuhu wa’ta’ala mightly bless those who are seeking Him beyond their wildest dreams and may you bow before him in COMPLETE submission for your whole life…. herein lies your peace.